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Not being able to save the life of someone you love is excruciating



Love is a choice.

We make choices every day. Those choices can be as simple as what to have for lunch or as complex as whether someone is making the right choice Ito deny chemotherapy. Choices abound in our lives, and how we make them can impact every part of us.

Love is one of those choices. “Love is patient, kind; it does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice in wrongdoing but rejoices in truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, and endures all things. Love never ends” (1 Corinthians 13:4-8). God is love.

She went sepsis four times, could not hold herself up, eat or drink, and was in and out of the hospital. So my ministry, school, and life had to be paused...

As a wife and mom of five kids, not much surprises or stops me, but God has taught me so much about love in the last four months. My mother-in-law became very ill in the span of 2 months. She went sepsis four times, could not hold herself up, eat or drink, and was in and out of the hospital. So my ministry, school, and life had to be paused because she, whom I have known and loved for 28 years, needed love and care.


That wasn’t the tough part; I would give my life for her; the tough part was becoming her hospice caregiver and taking care of her up till the moment her soul went to be with Jesus. Not being able to save the life of someone you love is excruciating, but what Cyndy needed was selfless love. Only by the grace of God was I able to give that to her.

Fast forward a month, and I got the dreaded call, the one you need to be sitting down for call; my dad had died.

Fast forward a month, and I got the dreaded call, the one you need to be sitting down for call; my dad had died. After a double lung transplant, three months in a coma, then rehab, his organ failed him, and he went to be with Jesus. Dave (my dad) chose to be my father when I was a teen; even after marriage to my mom didn’t work out, he chose to love me and call me his daughter until the day he died. His love was freely given.


The day we got home from my dad’s memorial, our dog became very sick, and we had to have him put down. Sitting in the vet clinic room with the doctor and our 13-year-old whippet Pharoah, my husband and I wept like babies. The doctor must have thought we were the best and most loving dog owners ever, but she did not know how much loss we had experienced weeks before. Pharoah would agree if he could communicate that he was never a spoiled fur baby, only our trusted family dog.

Life is too short not to choose love in everything.

The choice to love is one of the most important choices we can ever make. So love despite disagreements, emotions, selfishness, differences, and preconceptions. Life is too short not to choose love in everything. So this is why I wear love and choose to just love.


Rachel Moore

Sonoita, AZ

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